THE SITE IS >NOT< MOVING

Thank goodness, I am almost OK. 75% of my "thing" has left me. There is still is a 25% left inside me, but things are kinda OK I guess. I still have this thing inside me, but its alright now I guess.

I was at my mothers for the last week. I purchased a cellular online while I was there. It's my second one I purchased in the last 4 weeks.

Let me tell you something about Bluetooth and Wi-Fi. Did you know that Bluetooth and Wi-Fi can transmit information to more than one recipients at once? It's true. As I tried to listen to the music on my phone, I was woken up by the disconnection of my phone.

This only happened for the first 5 attempts of connecting to the phone line. It was dead then I connected to the line again. This happened 5 times, on both phones. Then is was OK, no more disconnection.

If you don't believe me, there is a website that can shed some light on it: https://youtu.be/1I1vxu5qIUM

Did you know that there is 2 of me? There's me, the real me, people's are happy to see me, and then there is a horrible horrible version of it.

I try to escape it, but the more I try to get rid of it, the more it doesn't want to leave. It so exhausting I can't even handle it anymore.

This happened when I would meditate. Normally the meditation is excellent. But this time I saw something awful, and I could not get rid of it at all. I'm stuck with 2 personalities. I don't know what to do.

The more I try to get away from it, the harder it gets to escape . If I could make you feel a tiny glimpse of how I feel, you would freak out.

It's impossible to show how bad it is. This started when I was 21 years old. I'm 51 now (2024). And this is >NOT< a medical problem. It's a spiritual problem. So don't put a medical "thing" on it. You wold be wasting your time.

To give you an idea of my "stomach" situation... If I lift my shirt to show you my stomach. It is completely (I mean REALLY) pushed in, even when I'm supposed to be relaxed... But(!), I'm not relaxed. My breath is completely off, pushing constantly. It's like my stomach is totally pushed and somebody is pulling all the time. It basically hurts. And the stomach is "yelling" at me. Maybe it's something my stomach is trying to tell me something. But it's exhausting, extremely exhausting.

Every time I swallowed, I felt a weird sensation going to my stomach. It "centred" at about 2-3 inches to the left. Every breath I took, every time I swallowed, It felt wrong. My stomach was in knots every time I swallowed. It lasted for 35 years. And by miracle, it mysteriously fixed itself. Now it's OK. Everything is centred. But I tell you, I had the worst time ever...

But it's not fixed. Every time I try, I feel the pulling and pushing harder and harder. The harder I pull the harder it is. I feel like I'm on the floor. It's unbelievable. Constantly... I can't rest.

I don't know how u believe in spiritual beings (you'll see what I mean, I have a section on it because it is real, contrary to what you would believe). It's real and it wont let me go... It's **** painful!!!

This happened when I did the 2 1/2 "deaths" early on.

This morning I got a call by a "pharmaceutical" company. It was a recording that said "We are in the process of getting information by people taking Marijuana and..." I hung up after that.  

The thing is that tomorrow morning I have a blood test with a girl at the CLSC. Weird don't you think? The 2 in the same 2 days...

Could this be a sign of what is to come? Because the number does not make sense. Here is the number: 1-418-615-1569. It says the call comes from a landline from TELUS in Chicoutimi, QC.

There is more to that, but I'll post it later on.

Weird! So stay tuned!

And when I try to get feel normal when I'm "possessed" I feel my stomach turned around and I feel just wrong. And that feeling last a looooong time. I feel twisted.

One day I discovered meditation, and it changed my life. I went down, deep deep down into myself. It was fantastic. Things started to emerge. I could see everything I was doing. Both good and bad. So I started to eliminate certain things I did not like.

Everything was fine until I saw something that I could not deal with. This was not something most people would have to face. It was so hard the it shook me to the core. So much so, that I was unable to face it. 

Imagine being stuck in a place were there is no "exit". It was horrible horrible horrible. You can not imagine the fear I felt. Till today it the same story. I am unable to see what I saw. I try to go back but it's too much . I am stuck in between good and bad, and I am stuck having to deal with them. It's just like being pulled, left and right, CONSTANTLY. it completely draining of my energy.

I order a bunch of stuff to make me "feel better" but it's is just a temporary thing, until the next order. It goes on and on.

Now I don't know what to do. I meditate but its very difficult with one arm. So next time you think that I am simply putting things to upset you, I DON'T do that. To give you an idea of the feeling: imagine the good and the bad fighting for yourself. You see the bad coming and it comes and >forces< itself into you and there is nothing you can do about it, nothing. Then bad "spirit" is now within you. So you struggle with it, and you sink deeper in to the struggle.  And forget about medication it doesn't work. I know cause it started immediately when I saw what was happening. It started immediately when I saw it... The feeling of being "possessed" is like taking 90%, of your energy and having giving it to the bad spirit. Pardon me if I use word "spirit" but it is the right word.  

And every time I get a minute of peace and quiet, next thing you know I have this thing attacking me from withing me. The good is put aside and I am attacked and I have this huge hole and the pain, great pain starts over and over again. It's horrible... And when I start meditating every thing stops. But it's always when I meditate. I have to wake up and meditate. I cannot seem to get there.

And when I try to feel normal when I'm "possessed" I feel my stomach turned around and I feel just wrong. And the reason why I put '' possessed'' is because I don't want the world possessed to sound corny. I used it because I really used the word correctly. But there should be another word to show you how I feel. And that feeling lasts a looooong time. I feel >twisted< in my own body. It's terrible.

Looking at the text: YAHWEH = YA (Yvan Arshoun). And look at the Bible, it says in Kings or Judges (not sure exactly witch, but you can point it out here) but there seems to be a falling out of the people in the court. I'm saying what it says. it's the truth. I don't know if you realize what you read but it's right there. I'm just pointing it out.

Also the other afternoon I was watching TV and on the Mexican channel, it was >PACKED< with channels with people going to jail. I mean packed. The shows were typically 15 minutes or so, and it took the whole evening....

Just to let you know, >YOU< who've chosen to hold back, you have made the decision, no matter who you are, you are counting the live of people (X life, X pain, times X) , and really you don't care, and that fine, You whoever reads this, they who hold this website (and blocked it and blocked access to where I want to go, and blocked my mail, It won't let me pass,

It's very clear by the Bible= YAHWEH =YA (Yvan Arshoun) and others. You have no idea of what coming. It's >NOT< a coincidence.

Stuck at 36.

I have a new TV receiver. After a while it jammed on me, nothing moved at all. This has never happened before. The speed is reduced... It stays at the same speed as after the "freeze". It's running at 1/2 the speed as before.

Stuck at 36.

For the longest time people have been looking at what I've been doing on line. That reason why I say that is that there have been offline/online "sounds" when I wasn't even on line.

And there was 1 individual that came on my lawn (dressed in brown, that used his ladder to go up and played with the leaves and went back down and left). Go figure! You were on >MY< lawn without my permission!

>AND< there was a man that knocked at my door and said he was here to pickup empty cans. He showed me the cans and they're was a 12 pack of empty cans in the front of my room. He drove a dark blue caravan. Unfortunately he was parked with license plate toward the street. But he drove what looked like the same vehicle that picks up the trash that can't be picked up by the city.

>AND< I've been >followed< by someone in the bus. I've was going to the docs and he followed me going there and coming back. Sitting right in front of me, and when we got back he followed me inside the mall and we went to 3 stores and he followed me in the stores and he waited in the "customer" line to see me. If this is true then I suspect he (or someone got the information on the phone). That is >CRIMINAL<. You have >NO< right listening to anybody on their phone line.  

>AND< someone (that's been listening to me on the phone line) waited until I was in the shower. He made the cutlery make loud noises and later left >banging< the door making sure I would hear him/her. 

This happened twice. Who knows if he/she was here other times. I had the locks changed (they arrived, 2 of them, with both locks each using the >same< key. Which is odd because I ordered a good Swiss brand). So I went with my mother and purchased special locks that locks from the inside.

>Actually< this is something I've been trying to stop because I've been "spied" on my phone line. Somebody has been sending or just making the others listening to snippet of my voice. I have ex-friends that have stopped talking to me. Including family. What that person is doing is >CRIMINAL<. They should be going to >JAIL<!!!

Stuck at 36. Oddly enough it changed months ago. It went >DOWN< this time (updated every time)!

You would think that someone who sees this web site can >SEE< that it's not a coincidence. Open up the Bible. NOTHING you see here is a coincidence. Go ahead, you'll see what I mean.

PS, someone (or others) has/have been >listening< at me thru the phone line and has the audio files and then forwards them to specific people. Not even mentioning using my FEELINGS to see what is going on with me. Look up this website you'll see what I mean. It's written down.

And another thing, when I am waiting for a phone call (a important call) when my phone rings, it rings once and stops ringing. I can't see who called me. So I feel that someone interrupted the phone call and spoke to the person. This has happened more than once. I wonder who interrupted the call...

And how long has it been since I put up the site? Almost a couple of years now...

The Website is online.